[Personal experiences]

So many symbolic layers


d a n c i n g

My dances seemed to take on a life of their own. Sometimes I felt like my body was moving as though I was part of an Indigenous tribe. Movements would come out of my body that I had never seen before and were layered with meaning. It wasn't until I reflected on my experiences that I came to realise the intensity of what I was able to tap into through this dance. The amazing thing was that my movement was dancing my life, dancing my experiences, dancing a timeless string of relationships.

As I dance, I create.
I perform.

I let go, allowing the bodily voice to speak through my body.
My essence transforms into movement.

Dancing my essence.
I dance from the heart, from the soul, the essence of who I am, creates movement.

I dance in honor of creative freedom
When I dance in this moment,
I connect with many worlds,
Surrendering to the rapturous embrace of my goddess song,
Existing for the loving service of the divine universe.

My dance is gift and sacrifice,
Service and ceremony.

My dance is me in all its mysterious flavors, textures, tones and dialogue.

As this journey took me deeper and deeper into mysterious terrains of my essence; movement would surge from my body, cascade from my soul, and I found myself introduced to a 'family' I felt I had never known. I felt as though I was reliving familiar situations (as a performer), in a state of remembering, however, it still felt new.

The journeys I underwent in my dancing experiences to date are analogous with the ideas expressed in Drama Education (Wright, 2000: 6) theory whereby the 5 Rhythms provided a medium for me to "interpret, then perform, the relationships within which they [ I ] lived and an opportunity for them [me] to think about their [my] participation in larger, systemic constructions of knowledge". The most challenging aspect of dancing was giving my body permission to speak, to interpret and tell its story in a performance. Every performance was different in flavor. Every movement was saturated with meaning. Every movement spoke a part of my-self, of my experience and its interaction with the greater cosmos.

As explored by Drama educator David Wright (2000), there is more to performance than just simply expressing a particular vocabulary. His interpretations of the language systems available to us identify some crucial aspects of activism. My activist expressions can be seen as "languaging" (Maturana & Varela in Wright, 2000: 6) where each expression is abundant in meaning, a process of participating and a process of meaning making. I sought out meaning in and through my body. I sought for its individual language. My bodily voice, and its languaging, is a journey that I experienced first-hand rather than abstractly observed.

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